I've been getting weird headaches and have been seeing purple sparks. The healer said it's probably just stress but said there's a minor chance it might be something serious. He wants to take my parents' blood and compare us to see if this rare disease is active in our blood. It's honestly no big deal, just a bit annoying. I seriously think I have a hypochondriac for a healer.
[HEXED PRIVATE: some random words breakable, perhaps to some close friends or ex-girlfriends]Of course, Dad will have to get the blood from my mother privately. I don't even want to think about how she'll react.
I don't know. Sometimes, I get it. It's so clear to me, when I'm on a broom and stuff. I don't need her while I'm flying. I can almost understand why she is the way she is when I can pour my energy out into something like racing. But it's when I'm home alone that I can't bear it.
I don't want to be near you!I feel my heart racing in my chest, so angry. Maybe that's why flying soothes it. So that my body can keep up with the fury of my heart.
I broke a valuable Glider X8 last year, thinking about her. I was just staring at some of my old brooms, and I just thought of that day. This uncontrollable feeling filled me and I grabbed a broom and snapped it in half. Bashed the broken ends into the walls, for no reason.
I feel like people feel as if they have so much access to me. That I'm so open to them, but I feel like everyone's closed off to me.
[/Private]I'm gonna go fly.
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